Truth: I have totally sucked at blogging this year.
Thankfully, no one is really left to have expectations for me to exceed or miss. And for that, I am thankful.
This has been the craziest last few weeks. My step-brother was arrested and hospitalized in Savannah back in September. For reasons that don't matter here, my family was on death watch up until last Sunday. Billy died peacefully, with dignity. Dignity was something he never really cared for, or at least his actions never showed it. I'm thankful that in his final days he had it. Serenity. Calm. The knowledge of knowing that he was loved and that his life was not in vain. Rest in peace.
On top of that, the situation with the kiddos has escalated and DFCS is involved. They will most likely be moved to a foster home within the next 30 days. I am sad, but I have peace about it. I have invested so much in those kids. I cannot understand why their mother won't do the basic things she needs to do, but it's not in my control, so I have to go with the flow.
Several weeks back, I stopped working with the students at church. I had prayed about the situation for MONTHS and very sweetly one Thursday, felt the Holy Spirit tell me that it was time and give me peace about the situation. I miss those kids, but I know that I could not have endured the last several weeks with that on my plate. Just another one of those moments where I am thankful for God's timing.
Then there's having to defend one of my chromosomes. Another story for another day.
xoxo,
Thankfully, no one is really left to have expectations for me to exceed or miss. And for that, I am thankful.
This has been the craziest last few weeks. My step-brother was arrested and hospitalized in Savannah back in September. For reasons that don't matter here, my family was on death watch up until last Sunday. Billy died peacefully, with dignity. Dignity was something he never really cared for, or at least his actions never showed it. I'm thankful that in his final days he had it. Serenity. Calm. The knowledge of knowing that he was loved and that his life was not in vain. Rest in peace.
On top of that, the situation with the kiddos has escalated and DFCS is involved. They will most likely be moved to a foster home within the next 30 days. I am sad, but I have peace about it. I have invested so much in those kids. I cannot understand why their mother won't do the basic things she needs to do, but it's not in my control, so I have to go with the flow.
Several weeks back, I stopped working with the students at church. I had prayed about the situation for MONTHS and very sweetly one Thursday, felt the Holy Spirit tell me that it was time and give me peace about the situation. I miss those kids, but I know that I could not have endured the last several weeks with that on my plate. Just another one of those moments where I am thankful for God's timing.
Then there's having to defend one of my chromosomes. Another story for another day.
xoxo,
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